Teaching
I haven’t blogged in two years.
I feel like I have a lot on my mind, and no one new to talk to. I just moved to Denver, so I have no friends, beyond coworkers and my lovely roommate.
The new school I am working at is great. Smart kids, motivated, but very privileged. That is something I am not used to. I was privileged going up, but not by these means. I always skated by in life. Worked from age 13-present and had a good work ethic. I still think I do. I have recently been challenging my teaching. Been trying to step it up a notch. I can’t help but be insecure about my job. When you’re a teacher, you are literally always being watched. The jury is out every second I work. How many other jobs are so closely monitored?
I am well liked at my school. Among students, at least. Growing up a Billman, we have always had such outgoing personalities and warm tones. We like to be liked. In this profession, seeing as I want to be liked and I am around such impressionable people, I wonder if I should put being so nice on the shelf. I think people confuse nice teacher = teacher we can walk over. I definitely put my foot down, but often wonder what is being said behind my back. What kind of teacher am I?
Coming from a school that had students constantly in trouble and often failing classes, I need to transition into challenging young minds who have the consistent effort I never experienced. It’s time I challenge myself.
/randomthoughts
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